next week wednesday

It is only a step from boredom to disillusionment, which leads naturally to self-pity, which in turn ends in chaos.
... these are not my words, i dont think anything i have ever written has ever sounded so vague. most of you will never truly understand the mind of the man that has gone down in history for saying them, hopefully, me neither. but to take every last one of those words and feel the negativity inherent in its nature, you might come to the assumption that it bears not repeating ... because it appears to be true.

the are other things that appear to be true too. butter is bad, so is sugar, so is the bread, and the vapor molecules of fume that now go undetected by most, when buying gas. my english teacher could never see eye to eye with me ... punctuation still made words awkward, less restrictive punctuality meant my own understanding and how i delivered it back was always my interpretation of what the .... ever you just told me. this is me. cursed with a genetic memory though i think that whole slavery thing wont fully go away ever ... today i bought a chicken salad sandwhich. the guy [ethnically different] seemed to be uneasy with my ethnicity or .. but i guess people are afraid. i guess black guys eat less of this sandwhich here .. than anywhere where i am from and where he is from ... scary indeed

but what appears to be true is the fact that no one knows what overcrowding looks like ... we are killing the planet whales are dying ... etc. so many problems. why is no one doing anything about it? do'nt give that .. it all starts with us that bs is see through to monkeys. am i not then more intelligent than mere donkey kong? ... well the sad part is king kong fought ... and we kicked his ass. not me .. but those rich enough to have travelled far enough to misinterpret the creature.

no offense though because thats what we teach our kids ... but we are only teaching them what we havent the time to begin to understand. so do habits become blind, ritual empty ... and then nightmarish mirror reflections of the opening line ... do about it we must. i believe deception ... is grossly misunderstood. most people [myself included] sometimes are totally unforgiving of their own ignorance and dismiss themselves as to being ''perfectly'' still themselves after seeing a magic trick or unexplained event. most people dont know how an airplane flies, or how much work goes into computer programming.

you see we all have the ability to understand something phenomenally different about our environment. because we are so thankfully different. but even our interpretations and understanding of ourselves and our environment is not widely communicated. most conspiracy theorists dramatize the fact that something has happened, or is going to happen, or we are being lied to. this is because even the dissenters from the social norm have an organismal optimistic approach to the preservation of life.

what i do not see are the minds that have realized that we are in an endgame situation. and that calamities [i hope i killed that biblical term correctly] are more than likely a pre-determined occurrence and if overpopulation is invisible, then i wonder where is it in the bible about how many people can successfully live on this rock before christ returns. i am not saying this jokingly, the water in your town is not as good as it used to be ... until you had to pay for it. water ... i bet some people could never imagine paying for water. billions of em. but not us bloggers.

i am sure all of this may not sink in until next week wednesday.