Sunday, December 28, 2008

the trouble with love is ...

sometimes when a dog barks and your mind actually thinks you can identify ... something it is intending ... then would be a good time to get angry at science for being absurdly stupid. see the thing about science is .. it aims to prove or disprove a hypo ... back up .. right there. it aims to prove.

it should have aimed to influence ... maybe then it would have been given more attention. and all manner of heavenly daydreams can be fulfilled. sorry i meant 'could have been' ... funny how we always almost miss it ...

Saturday, December 27, 2008

next week wednesday

It is only a step from boredom to disillusionment, which leads naturally to self-pity, which in turn ends in chaos.
... these are not my words, i dont think anything i have ever written has ever sounded so vague. most of you will never truly understand the mind of the man that has gone down in history for saying them, hopefully, me neither. but to take every last one of those words and feel the negativity inherent in its nature, you might come to the assumption that it bears not repeating ... because it appears to be true.

the are other things that appear to be true too. butter is bad, so is sugar, so is the bread, and the vapor molecules of fume that now go undetected by most, when buying gas. my english teacher could never see eye to eye with me ... punctuation still made words awkward, less restrictive punctuality meant my own understanding and how i delivered it back was always my interpretation of what the .... ever you just told me. this is me. cursed with a genetic memory though i think that whole slavery thing wont fully go away ever ... today i bought a chicken salad sandwhich. the guy [ethnically different] seemed to be uneasy with my ethnicity or .. but i guess people are afraid. i guess black guys eat less of this sandwhich here .. than anywhere where i am from and where he is from ... scary indeed

but what appears to be true is the fact that no one knows what overcrowding looks like ... we are killing the planet whales are dying ... etc. so many problems. why is no one doing anything about it? do'nt give that .. it all starts with us that bs is see through to monkeys. am i not then more intelligent than mere donkey kong? ... well the sad part is king kong fought ... and we kicked his ass. not me .. but those rich enough to have travelled far enough to misinterpret the creature.

no offense though because thats what we teach our kids ... but we are only teaching them what we havent the time to begin to understand. so do habits become blind, ritual empty ... and then nightmarish mirror reflections of the opening line ... do about it we must. i believe deception ... is grossly misunderstood. most people [myself included] sometimes are totally unforgiving of their own ignorance and dismiss themselves as to being ''perfectly'' still themselves after seeing a magic trick or unexplained event. most people dont know how an airplane flies, or how much work goes into computer programming.

you see we all have the ability to understand something phenomenally different about our environment. because we are so thankfully different. but even our interpretations and understanding of ourselves and our environment is not widely communicated. most conspiracy theorists dramatize the fact that something has happened, or is going to happen, or we are being lied to. this is because even the dissenters from the social norm have an organismal optimistic approach to the preservation of life.

what i do not see are the minds that have realized that we are in an endgame situation. and that calamities [i hope i killed that biblical term correctly] are more than likely a pre-determined occurrence and if overpopulation is invisible, then i wonder where is it in the bible about how many people can successfully live on this rock before christ returns. i am not saying this jokingly, the water in your town is not as good as it used to be ... until you had to pay for it. water ... i bet some people could never imagine paying for water. billions of em. but not us bloggers.

i am sure all of this may not sink in until next week wednesday.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

unregular human disposition

firstly most people who read this, will have a most difficult time identifying the underlying positivity that lies underneath this crude exposition. most people are born without a knack or understanding of science outside of the scope of their daily routine. this is due to nature? i wont argue for, or against nurture. but i do propose that the vast majority of us are pre-disposed to life as we know it.
this involves the following of various models, religious, political, familial cultural etc. all of which have no basis in the proper determination of [a daily renewed] quantum experience.

lets face it, there goes more unexplained everyday, than goes explained, this process of explanation [in a way] helps us to evolve [or devolve] ie. communication like this being read, will be seen as primary in nature, to some, while others will have no idea of implications generated by the anti-thesis to many of these statements [including those you haven't read yet].

science can not explain everything, but by trying to do so, we raise the level of humanity to plateaus that are often mistaken as significant days, era's .. periods etc. when in fact the only significant events are usually shielded from public view. this mere hypothesis is so plausible it has to be taken as a possible reality. but realities [controlled environments because every environment follows its own set of physics] are not for everyone. some humans have been genetically ... de-vovled. anyone who thinks they use the total capacity and use of their brain should be able to provide you with the hard maths that proves this theory.

that's what we as humans do everyday. we theorize and philosophize on the tiny details and we continuously conduct experiments within our known environments. our ability to remain restricted to our realities is more or less in-evitable. as the movement of time or our in ability to detach ourselves from it, contributes to some of what we term the human condition.

science is quite possibly the most important tool necessary in making life easier, nazism explored and exploited this belief with selfish results. why? i am no nazi but i do identify with fundamentals that the leaders during that period acted upon. they acted on their beliefs, not many people on the planet act so viciously on beliefs that are so ... basic. these are people of which money is just a word. and politicians are simple tax collectors and i hate to use the word liars ... i prefer the term, ''engaged in dis-information for the sake of'' [insert minority group here, or global cause, or simply imagine a check to be written out to whoever you wish in any amount not to exceed 3 million dollars ... deposited where you want it] this is a job most government officials pray to get the chance of.

i have had the un-deniable task of trying not to think macro-cosmically. this has caused me to be a bit removed from normal influences and seek the influences of the few. finding the few seems to be simple enough, but without a Ph.D. behind my name i have had to prove my true intentions on 2 occasions. [classified] what i am hoping for [to come out of all of this] is the influence of more to turn to science, it may uncover realities more important than any television series, ballgame, opera show, vacation to the bahamas etc.

i am in the bahamas and yes the weather and the reality in which i find myself is ... can be very enjoyable at times, but the worlds i have been exposed to, have more than helped me realize that an island location is a great escape from harsher realities forced upon some [in a tragic way] and generously gifted to others. i am not proposing that just because you have a question, you should have it answered by someone who can answer it. but maybe i would answer it for you ... if you would simply accept it. but because our heads are so humanly strong once we push it in one direction .. its hard to pull it back out [lol] i am currently working on frequencies and the human bio-electro magnetic field. military already has physical equipment geared toward affecting the human body with invisible unaudible ... waves that can be used for many effects, from hot-stasis [opposite of cryo-stasis, which involves the stopping of the physical body among other things] hot stasis involves tuning of cells to a level of resonance that ... heals the cell, removes foreign substances [at the cellular level] and can actually have an almost limitless applications depending on the frequencies that can be safely used.

i do not write code, but hopefully i become gifted with this ability in the near future. and no its not like i am just gonna be on a beach in a few minutes ... a guy got laundry to do, sleep to catch up on from ... last night etc. today i was asked who could be blamed for us? [social-culture] but i left it alone ... the asker must seek out their own. my demons belong to me, and i wont let them near anyone else. i may get a chance to test out my science on them .. soon enough.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

music lesson

a simple worded multi-conflict direct approach to the sensation of re-creating, interpreted audio signals. music is a very vague word, the truest form of the thing we are actually referring to is best left to the earliest form of the word. to hear a thing and like is ... is music to one's ears.

in order to understand what you can create musically, you may have to endure years of training, hours of practice, a mind meld, aura transplant .. whatever. but to do that is to connect to a reality, i will use the word ''audality'' songs are already copyrighted by me to that name. [seeders please remain seated]. the reality will be like a brief moment connected instantaneously [almost] with another brief moment ... where your ears input probably a greater amount of information (in relation to your eyes) .. to your brain. and the sound of things becomes ... almost as solid as if you were looking at them.

this can all be done without the aid of harmful substances. however in most cases it is necessary to do research into any field very thoroughly, talents arent just designed to exist. they help in evolution [doubters made me torch the term transcendance] ... awareness of realities ... it can be addictive. in and of itself music exists as many things ... and this vague term holds more in connection with the realities that exist closer together, it is a generator, or re-alignment mechanism ...

like i said it is many things. i suggest every person make a to-do list. make time for themselves and use that time .. either listening to music, or practicing in its creation. the sounds generated are purposeful exploits ... and provide [a neuralogical layout] easy examples of human nature ... in the form of sound, time, and with closed [or ninja] open eyes ... color.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

blog transformed

and so now i begin something else folks ... a blog that will turn into a music meter. please enjoy i hope to be fully functional by august 2009. i have a 6 month vacation i got to get to first ...

Saturday, October 25, 2008

gossip: form a

i heard this somewhere, a truly well written quote to say the least of it, dont mind all of this flattery because even if it does sound like me i could always just look for it now and ah yes it says here that i wrote it ... a truly smart man, knows that he must be educated every moment of his life ... even if that means he must constantly re-educate himself on the things he thinks he already knows.

i dont know why i would post something as abstract ... or write melodies broken by time of repetition. things slow down and stop. eventually. this wont be last time nor was this the first time. this is another time. give time a heritage and we live with but .. a very distant descendant apparently very ill ...

Friday, October 24, 2008

indications of separations

to listen to the voice in the back of your head ... all the time ... can get annoying. but whats more annoying is when you ignore it and it tells you ''i told you so''. terrence mckenna [r.i.p.] has influenced me more under the influence of his ''persistency'', than i think i have been influenced by any other subject, but as in most cases, i hope to be decidedly wrong.

the title of this blog will by no means, justify the contents to anyone, except he or she who can see through curtains of ... velvet anything. mere ranting has never felt to be, or not to be, more shakespearean than ever before, to me .. my love though art nought but fair, that which ought to be denied me ... but denied only until i say cease! i can control who i am and what happens.

most people are sheep, behold we are sheep ... led far astray. my ideas stolen once written, now only exist in the cochlea .. when i come down off this mountain i won't remember why i wrote cochlea, so please lets just leave it alone. a persons destiny unfolds onto their skin renewed with vigor and power once touched by a radiant sun.

scientists all around the world in every field of knowledge imaginable has produced quite possibly 2 /5th's of all the information vital to the utopiafication of this planet .. yet we do nothing. we stand at our leaders side and advocate with them .. against another set of ''thems'' .. ''why the fuck cant we all just get a fucking-long already''. never the philosophical thinking type i somehow manage to astound every male older than me into ... child's play for conversation, just because they have no patience to let too much time pass between them and something .. they may actually like.

all words, like time, come back into play, some words will be quoted and others left out. i don't mind any mis-construction .. construe? mis-construed is what i just got as a possible candidate for an alternate word. but we cant get along because of the exact same reason. of course explanation will be provided but still only in part ... as i care not to do this too often no matter how many people read-and re-read. we cant get along because we want to seem better than everyone else. better spellers ... better actors .. more courageous, more rich ... technologically more advanced and the list goes on. i would like to thank germany for the term ''misconstrued''.

but that which holds us together only seem to have till 2013 ... because i heard that due to an explosion on a planetary level is due to creep up on several billion of us and kinda connect us back to the square root of the the diameter of the element light is made of. now i know it all seems scary. but why is it that some people embrace the holocaust ... from BOTH sides. i do not mean the ones in the past that are scary, because that's where i am getting my data. i mean the ones .. that intelligent people in this world have the capabilities of detecting and predicting.

a crazy guy once told me ... there's always a clock ... somewhere ticking down to something. i guess that meant he should devote his life to nothing, maybe he sees it differently. he definitely lives life harsher. the elements beat down his flesh more ... his skin and feet are dirty and thickened .. he smells, and he's over it. its a big step to get over one's smell .. when you smell utterly foul. but society is actually alot sicker. societies are sick things ... when sick people are in control of it ... simple ... shit.

but maybe its just an absence of love. love is just a word to billions of us. its my mother my father ... then crushed, often. mixed and stirred ... sometimes with ice. mostly without. but always protect yourself ... son, this world is a sick place to be, gotta love your God, your Queen and your country. unlearn all that bullshit she told me. ''... she had sex'' with the reverend, anyway that's what she told me, all i did was sit at a bar and wait for someone to bother my saturday night, in she came ... i talked real lame, she seemed a shame and a waste to be in this place. she shoulda been locked up because a good man knocked her up a few times ... but she was out to play. too many bad boys took her hopes and dreams away.

i stand alone, i stand ... i tire of all this i have to change. for money .. or love or power .. or nothing. death comes so quickly to those not looking for it .. not cooking up schemes and homemade pipe dreams .. turn religion .. turn oil into gold. a statement of faith shall not stand up to a statement of truth. and the truth shall set me free. have i spoken true? then why don't i feel free yet? maybe because i didn't get the key yet?

Friday, September 12, 2008

the day i stopped voting.

the title of this section was going to be more obscene, before i remembered and realized that this isnt my book ... this internet, its not just ours ... hold on to your passwords people, i dont and i am doing rather awful this evening, the bank called me at work. and they put my cousin on the phone to tell me i owed them 84 dollars ... and 31 cents. but on top of having a person within 5 miles of you that makes you sick [yeah let me fix this idea i am trying to deliver; ... a person makes me sick. i am allergic to a particular person, when we are 5 miles apart, i have an allergic reaction. that person is now within a 5 mile area ... and about 2 miles at least ... within any given moment. ] and the 84 31 thing was today too. ok so on to the obscenities.

about 7 days ago i heard a comment so innocent it seemed at that very moment believable and hold on a minute let me fact check it. the time that actually takes place between one sentence and the next can be alarmingly high. the stories i can tell you ... but i must try to remained focus ... anyone who can should read about canadian politicians. good stuff in there but the comment was that canada has had three prime ministers in a ten year span.

the person making the comment was an astute fellow head banger i met in a dive while surfing the net for free airfare to [invasion of privacy and deleted ed. s.m. ] it seems like it doesnt matter the era you look at canadian politics, theres something in it that just feels good to me. politics is the face, and the machine currently making our world turn, politics is a very human thing and although most people do not follow the teachings of the people that led their ancestors ... people .. us .. we are quite fine following the ones of today with their bullshit.

but a political turnover as huge as that ... has to come from the amount of attention the citizens are paying to the people in their politiks [left in ed s.m.] thats alot of attention. thats the amount of attention that is near total ... and near total attention is what seems to be the only thing that makes the system of politics more efficient, to a level that only leads ''consumerism'' left ... to be dismantled from the inside of course, maybe someone sees another way, but i been fighting consumerism please dont make me type that word anymore ... i been fighting it (please note i would love to say that for the rest of the story whenever i say i was fighting an it .... i'd like for the reader to be well aware that i dont want to type that word again so i am not .. i dont care if i already typed it and all i have to do is cut and paste ... i am not cutting nor pasting, i am simply saying it.

i been going on too long now and the amount of time that passes between a paragraph seems to be enough to get a girl pregnant and lose about 8 years of time. its alot of time .. is all i am saying, dont think differently. and if you do. then good. for you. me i got no plane to catch so i'll be here all night. i never thought about that. the internet is where anybody can always be found at ... my ip address is marked. it might be a good thing ... maybe i should pay more attention to that. instead of voting for awhile. as well as my unopened internet bill. as you see i will be fighting 'it' for a long time to come.

i only did that it like that because even if you are ADD it should now register for always the its's you will see in the future.